fine day~

Phew~ the PBL discussion today was going on smoothly.....although i didn't really speaks... hope the presentation next week will be going on smoothly too....i hope i can adapt to it soon.....and luckily my facilitator is not very strict.....if my facilitator is Dr yeong, perhaps i will be in the emergency ward already....

It just the beginning...

4th year wasn't as free as i thought....although i had only 2 study days per week, but the stress is like thousand and millions times more than i was in the previous year...:( My biggest problem is during the PBL presentation...i panic, shakes, and my mind totally gone blank....am i having stage fright?? but there wasn't any stage....and my presentation is just sitting on the chair, not even need to stand....what am i afraid of actually?

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During my first mock presentation, i totally screw up my topic....i don't know what am i talking...and i am sure other people too....after the presentation, i really felt tired and sad.....tired because i used up all my energy to control my emotion? after coming back from uni....i really feel like finding someone to talk to....but it seems like nobody can really understand how panic i was.....soon, my tear just drip down....drop by drop....am i really ready to go to 4th year? i thought maybe i should just give myself a rest....

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Yesterday, i felt my hands keep on sweating....because i know there are presentation again the next day....and this time i have to present 2 trigger....i worried i couldn't cope with it again.... i was really nervous.....

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today, i miss my stop at the bdr tasik selatan ktm station......the train brought me to serdang *swt*....maybe i was thinking too much until i miss my station....i couldn't finish my lunch......the food(pan mee) taste so salty.....and i felt very full....i couldn't join the conversation with my friends...my mind is feeling blank....i know i need to look for a place to calm down myself......i felt they walk very slow....or maybe i walk too fast....i really don't know ......all i know is to reach the PBL room as soon as possible.....

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The PBL session went on smoothly.....i didn't panic like last time....although my hand abit shaky during the presentation.....i was satisfied ....haha....

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There are many more presentation waiting for me....and i just need to face it....i know i will never like it .....but i will accept it....because this is all just the beginning.....

HOLIDAYS!!!!!

Finally is another holiday~ i waited so long for this holiday....and finally it has reached...:) haha

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There is no specific reasons for me to wait for this holiday....no travels, no activities, no outing...i just want to rest, rest and rest...and just wan to get away from EXAMS!! Life is so good without exams...

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i finally can sit down and watch my favourite show- American's idol...but yesterday is already the result finale :( ....i miss many episode of it...but still remember there is a good looking, talented singer name Adam Lambert...i wish he could win as he really the best idol ever of all seasons by far...but my friend told me he lose...i really couldn't belief it, cause he has the whole package...maybe my friend is wrong....or maybe Kris sing really well in the finale (i didn't watch the final so i don't know how they perform) .. i glued to my TV throughout the whole result show just to wait for Ryan Seacrest to announce the winner....i still hope that Adam is the winner...:P...Adam sang really well during the show...whereas Kris is just okay....Finally the result is out....Kris won...Kris really won...ok, i accept it...

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Sometimes in life, u just have to accept although u totally not agree to it...or maybe when u hate a person, everything negatives about that person will automatically come out from your mind...that time, u are most likely to make a wrong judgement...last time, i am quite a stubborn person (now still is...improving!!)...it is very hard for me to accept something that i don't like or disagree (i still think Adam deserve to win :P)...now i am learning to accept...because i saw and seen many egos in my life.... peoples get very irritated by them...and even i will get irritated....so i don't want others to get irritated by me...''sorry, if u are irritated by me..really sorry!''

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ok...back to holiday plan~

• plan 1 - Sleep 12 hours per day

• plan 2 - Watch TV

• plan 3 - Games, online...

• plan 4 - Get rid of my pimples

• plan 4 - Cooks

• plan 5 - Shopping? no money :(

• plan 6 - Gain weight...so eat, eat and eat

• plan 7 - still thinking.....

finally ~HAPPY HOLIDAYS TO ALL~ ;)

JJJSEPAKCY annual reunion

Is another JJJSEPAKCY reunion ...ever wonder what jjjsepakcy stand for? haha...it means Justin, Jason, Jonathan, Su sian, Ee yin, Poh chin/Poh wan, Azaria, gerard (goh nai King), Chze lor, Yuan wen.... it's 11 of us!! Although is a reunion gathering, but only 6 out of 11 turn out..how sad :( but at least half of us turn out...We never had the full attendance before...and hopefully next year there will be a full attendance ... So let's see who are those six loyal members.. Our main organizer for this gathering, chze lor....thanks for all his effort to get us out this year :) And the organizer's girlfriend, Yuan Wen Out of the 3 J's, only one J turn out, and it was jason (the tallest member) And of cause our ex-organizer, ee yin And me of cause, still so loyal :P And last but not least, azaria (she is not a Malay) Thailand souvenir from Jason

Family reunion

Is another chinese new year...the year of ox.. Nothing special every chinese new year...the foods are the same (bak zam kai,mix vegies, taufu, vinegar pork,...), the relatives are the same (just one year older each year), the decorations in my house are always the same (recycle :P)...I thought chinese new year should be everything new, but everything end up to be the same..